this blog's collecting dust D: haha. term 1's going to end soon! time flies. hoho. actl, i am looking fwd most to the march holidays (: haha. but i think autumn'll look damn nice in a tube lah (: oh dear. i haven't bought my heels yet, nvm, maybe gg to get later.
sigh i don't know why there's so much politics going on almost everywhere. like, permeating to almost every aspect of life. it. really. sucks. i may seem not to care, but in reality, i really do. just because i don't say anything, doesn't mean i don't FEEL anything. it just means that well, i don't want to say it, i don't want to make it even more real than before.
i hate it when ppl misrepresent others, it's such a sucky feeling. and i don't know why things have come to such a stage, bcos well, come to think of it, i was the one who laid the grounds for this to happen anyway. and i hate myself, now, for all the senseless competition that's running thru my mind, tell me, why do i even care?
responsibility, responsibility, responsibility. i really don't like this, because i don't understand why ppl just cant cooperate. i hate it when you arrange everything nicely and then ppl just freaking cancel on you and then expect you to clear up all the mess for them. please, i'm not someone you can bully that easily. i know i'm nice, but still... there's always a limit as to what ppl can take. i hate the feeling of being neither here nor there, because you are trapped, and you can't advance or retreat. it's such an enclosed and suffocating feeling. and you know what? i'm not handling it too well either, i don't know why things have gotten to such a stage. but trust me, it's not just you who have got projects, who have got homework. i do, and we do too. i wish that ppl will care less abt their self-interest and come together, in the recognition of a group interest, to be collectivist. but really, i am probably expecting too much. yes just because you're willing to give up so much doesn't mean others'll put in the same, sometimes, it's really annoying to have ppl wanting to steal the limelight and not doing any work while ppl work so hard behind the scenes.
this is like angst bottled up since the start of term. every time when a new year begins i'll always have high hopes for everything. and in the end? i don't think half even materialised. i think maybe this is because of all the crap that has been going on. emotions, emotions, emotions. i used to abhor logic in favour of emotions, but now, i think being too emotional isn't a very good thing either. it sucks, it really sucks to be a pawn in someone else's game. simply because we're not pawns, we're human too. the desire to win, the desire for competition, can sometimes erode your humanity, and your compassion. and the very worst part of this is that well, you don't even recognise this. let's just face it, the world's a complicated place. not everything can be equated by simple equations, or that by addition or subtraction you can make something inherently flawed perfect.
and oh CRAP we didn't take down the cny decorations. wthgkfjhghgdfjgh... AHHHH. i will look damn stupid carrying the flowerpot thing home, but oh well.
oh yes, don't draw false links from what i've typed above, it's entirely personal (: i think talking to autumn is quite intellectual actually (except maybe we talk too much), haha that's why all the not so nice things that i've been trying to suppress surfaces.
looking on the bright side, at least some sias're over. now we're left with chem sia which we have not yet started at all :/
let's go for the career fair next year okay!! (: haha hmmm. actually, what i want to do doesn't have much in relation with academic subjs lor. but nvm. next time we all go set up L.A company lah (:
/ 8th WORLD WONDER
Hey world, we're the 8th world wonder yo. Love Always is an awesome group of friends, formed in 2006 and derived from a part of 309'06 Nanyang Girls High School. Proud to declare themselves going strong even now, with regular meet-ups and all.
this blog's collecting dust D: haha. term 1's going to end soon! time flies. hoho. actl, i am looking fwd most to the march holidays (: haha. but i think autumn'll look damn nice in a tube lah (: oh dear. i haven't bought my heels yet, nvm, maybe gg to get later.
sigh i don't know why there's so much politics going on almost everywhere. like, permeating to almost every aspect of life. it. really. sucks. i may seem not to care, but in reality, i really do. just because i don't say anything, doesn't mean i don't FEEL anything. it just means that well, i don't want to say it, i don't want to make it even more real than before.
i hate it when ppl misrepresent others, it's such a sucky feeling. and i don't know why things have come to such a stage, bcos well, come to think of it, i was the one who laid the grounds for this to happen anyway. and i hate myself, now, for all the senseless competition that's running thru my mind, tell me, why do i even care?
responsibility, responsibility, responsibility. i really don't like this, because i don't understand why ppl just cant cooperate. i hate it when you arrange everything nicely and then ppl just freaking cancel on you and then expect you to clear up all the mess for them. please, i'm not someone you can bully that easily. i know i'm nice, but still... there's always a limit as to what ppl can take. i hate the feeling of being neither here nor there, because you are trapped, and you can't advance or retreat. it's such an enclosed and suffocating feeling. and you know what? i'm not handling it too well either, i don't know why things have gotten to such a stage. but trust me, it's not just you who have got projects, who have got homework. i do, and we do too. i wish that ppl will care less abt their self-interest and come together, in the recognition of a group interest, to be collectivist. but really, i am probably expecting too much. yes just because you're willing to give up so much doesn't mean others'll put in the same, sometimes, it's really annoying to have ppl wanting to steal the limelight and not doing any work while ppl work so hard behind the scenes.
this is like angst bottled up since the start of term. every time when a new year begins i'll always have high hopes for everything. and in the end? i don't think half even materialised. i think maybe this is because of all the crap that has been going on. emotions, emotions, emotions. i used to abhor logic in favour of emotions, but now, i think being too emotional isn't a very good thing either. it sucks, it really sucks to be a pawn in someone else's game. simply because we're not pawns, we're human too. the desire to win, the desire for competition, can sometimes erode your humanity, and your compassion. and the very worst part of this is that well, you don't even recognise this. let's just face it, the world's a complicated place. not everything can be equated by simple equations, or that by addition or subtraction you can make something inherently flawed perfect.
and oh CRAP we didn't take down the cny decorations. wthgkfjhghgdfjgh... AHHHH. i will look damn stupid carrying the flowerpot thing home, but oh well.
oh yes, don't draw false links from what i've typed above, it's entirely personal (: i think talking to autumn is quite intellectual actually (except maybe we talk too much), haha that's why all the not so nice things that i've been trying to suppress surfaces.
looking on the bright side, at least some sias're over. now we're left with chem sia which we have not yet started at all :/
let's go for the career fair next year okay!! (: haha hmmm. actually, what i want to do doesn't have much in relation with academic subjs lor. but nvm. next time we all go set up L.A company lah (:
